Be present in your feelings

I see some of you are hurting and I want you to know, you’re worth so much more.

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You’re going to be afraid to love again.
That hard exterior will grow around your heart
And bitterness will become easy.
You’ll cycle through the grief, anger,
Possibly spiral into temporary desperation –
Wishing they’d call;
Wishing they’d say those words
that water your soul –
but in a way that they mean it this time;
Not in a way that
They’ve said it before.
Not in a way
It left you wanting more,
Where they let it flow so carelessly
Off of their lips –
Where each syllable
Made you recall
The way their tongue curled
with every breathe of air
Passing across it.

Bitterness will be easy and
No one will blame you
for feeling it.

But – you’re only harming yourself.
Self harm in the form of holding on.
Emotional self harm
That scars and destroys
Your own sense of self respect
Your own dignity
Your own pride
Your own self worth.

Don’t let it.
Cry your tears
But then dry them.
Let yourself hurt
But then allow yourself to smile.
You’ll get chills.
That’s your body trying to reset.
You’ll be heart broken
And it’s okay to feel. Let yourself feel,
But you won’t find that fix in someone else.

That’s your work.
The person that broke it,
Won’t look back
Once they’ve broken you.
So show them
They haven’t destroyed you.
Raise your chin.
Wipe your tears.
Begin the mend.
When they realize
What they’ve done,
Who they’ve lost

• you’ll be ready to keep them out.

Cassie Redfearn – Dec. 2019